Yesterday I wrote about writing to music. I barely mentioned my hatred for Jazz, and I know you must be curious, so here’s a piece I wrote a couple of years ago.
I’ve revised it and brought it up to date, but my feelings about Jazz will never change.
But, sure, go ahead—tell me what you think.
When I was a senior in high school, I dated the greatest guy. He was cute, smart, a good kisser, and best of all, a good listener. He liked what I had to say, or at least he pretended to. We had some things in common and I loved that. We tried not to laugh at our differences — our little romance was still that new — but if he mentioned jazz I missed it.
On our third date we went to a party at his friend’s house deep in the heart of Detroit. The music was cranked up so loud we could hear it the minute we got out of the car. I looked at him but he was already on his way, shoulders shaking, fingers snapping, oblivious to me or anything else outside of the sounds bringing him to a weird kind of ecstasy.
I think he called it a “jazz den”. We were in a jazz den and I was supposed to like it. How could I not? Who didn’t like jazz?
How did we get to a third date without knowing each other’s taste in music? I don’t know, but if he had asked I would have told him that of all the forms of music, jazz was my most hated. I despised it with a passion that was hot, that was visceral, that was strong enough to make my toes curl and my fingers form into fists. And now I hated him.
We argued in his friend’s house and we argued all the way home. How could he do that to me? How could I NOT like Dave Brubeck? How could we even think this was going to work? We had mutual friends so we had to run into each other now and then, but we barely nodded. Fine with me. I dodged that bullet but good.
But if I thought that was the end of my encounters with jazz, I was just too naïve for words. Jazz was everywhere. Jazz is everywhere.
It’s on my phone when I’m put on hold. Scratchy whiny caterwauling designed to make me hang up because they’re too damned busy to bother with me, anyway. And they hate me.
It yowls from the loudspeakers when I’m shopping, it rings in my ears where I’m “dining” (i.e:, not just eating), it invades my space while I’m sitting on the toilet in their restrooms.
It’s so all over NPR I’m not sure it’s worth it anymore. I used to wait until All Things Considered was two minutes in before I turned it on, but now they’ve taken to taunting me with that insane theme music in between segments. And Fresh Air. Don’t even. Because they hate me.
I know people who love jazz. Or I should say, I knew people. If I dare to question their adoration they’ll first try to school me, then, if I don’t bite, they shun me. Because I’d have to be a complete moron not to love jazz.
In the 1980s I met Stanley Crouch, the ultimate jazz enthusiast, a giant of a man who had a steady gig writing lofty riffs about jazz using jazzy language that sounded pretty impressive to my admittedly tin ear. (RIP, Stanley. I mean it.)
He knew the jazz greats and showed me the liner notes he wrote for Gold and Platinum albums. He was best known for his critical writing but it was those liner notes he seemed to like best. They gave him the chance to be intimate with his passion, to praise the jazz men who gave him such joy, to lay it all out there with love.
When I first met him at Ragdale, an artist colony north of Chicago where we both had residencies, I didn’t know who he was. I was new to the whole colony thing and he couldn’t have been kinder. He helped me unload my car and carried the heavy stuff up to my loft room. He showed me around as if the retreat were his own. He took my fears away on that first day, when I was terrified and feeling like the world’s most obvious dilettante.
He told me he’d chosen Ragdale over all the other colonies because he could hop on a commuter train a mile from the house and head on over to Chicago’s famed Jazz clubs after a long day’s work at his day job—which, at that time, was working on a novel.
Early into my two week stay, the jazz man and I talked often during our non-writing hours— or he talked during those hours — and at first I was as fascinated as he thought I should be. I really wanted to understand that whole jazz cult. He knew it to its core. I didn’t get it. In time I knew and he knew I would never get it. He could talk until the moon shriveled to nothing but in the end it was all about the sound. Not the theory but the sound.
He dumped me.
For three years in a row we happened to choose the same springtime weeks for our residencies at Ragdale, but things were never the same between us. At the end of that last year the only time he talked to me was when he was leaving, running late to catch the train to the airport in Chicago, the taxi already waiting, and he threw a package at me and asked me to make sure the UPS guy got it.
I mean…
Jazz hurts. It hurts me. And because it hurts I resent the intrusion, the tyranny that forces my participation in what my brain, my ears, my heart, my gut considers dreadful, unaccountable noise.
So remember that the next time you hear jazz in places where I might be. Someone could be suffering and you’re doing nothing to help. You don’t even hear how painful that deliberate dissonance is.
But I do.
You have opinions about this. I know you do. So have at it. I’m all ears. Just don’t add sound to it, no matter how much you’re tempted. I’ll hate you for it.
Coincidentally I just saw two movies that are about "jazz": "The Jazz Singer" (1927) and "Whiplash" (2014).
https://moviewise.wordpress.com/2021/07/31/the-jazz-singer/
https://moviewise.wordpress.com/2021/07/27/whiplash/
What I learned from this is that the word "jazz" is used to mean many different kinds of music. The early jazz of the 1927 film is what I think people would call "Broadway Tunes" now. It is music with lyrics that is like pop music, but with exaggerated hand and facial gestures. The 2014 jazz is modern big band music. Big Band, is swing music, like Benny Goodman: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIoTpeM6o2A
I can't image that there is a person in this world who wouldn't like "sing, sing, sing". It's impossible. It's too fun and beautiful.
Your experience is with improvisation jazz, which unlike the other two mentioned above, does not use sheet music. It is difficult, I agree, to like it. I think that is the whole point of it. It's an acquired taste. It's a game where you submit yourself to a kind of torture until you can pick out the few seconds it actually sounds good. That is your reward for patiently waiting for the musicians to create something that sounds good on the spot like that together. (It's improvised, WOW!) It is an achievement and you were there to experience it, hence the pleasure. It's a kind of negative feedback meditation.
But, there is already beautiful music that some musicians spent hours or years perfecting to sound not only good all the way through, but sublime, like Glenn Miller's "In The Mood" which is also considered jazz: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vOUYry_5Nw
So, it's not "all that jazz" 🤗
My husband loves jazz. it is his music of choice in the car, in the evening, when he is cooking... I am learning to tolerate it, some of it I don't mind but then I don't think I will ever say I love it. We sound so bourgeois when I tell people that in the evening we sit in the lounge and listen to jazz, but that's as good as it gets for me x